Never Good Enough

"Hear, O Lord, when I cry aloud;

be gracious to me and answer me!

You have said, 'Seek my face.'

My heart says to you,

'Your face, Lord, do I seek.'

Hide not your face from me.

Turn not your servant away in anger,

O you who have been my help.

Cast me not off; forsake me not,

O God of my salvation!

For my father and my mother have forsaken me,

but the Lord will take me in.

Psalm 27:7-10


If you have spent any length of time studying with me, you probably know that when I read Psalms, I do so with the intention to not overthink it. Psalms wasn't meant to be over-analyzed. It wasn't meant to be broken down by theologians and turned into teaching. It was meant to be felt. To be experienced. It was written by artists, not teachers, and its purpose is to pull you into their story and to expose you to raw, broken...intimate worship.


I love this Psalm in particular for this reason. It has always resonated with me in a very special way, and it never fails to inspire desperate worship in me. I can't tell you the number of times I have fallen on my face before God and cried out, "God, I need You! I have nowhere else to go! No one else to turn to! I need You! I can't make it without Your presence!"


Friends, no matter what you do, or where you go, or what benefit you bring to the world around you, there will always be people you are not good enough for. There will always be people in your life who are meant to love you who just won't. There will always be people who will make you feel small and unlovable and unwanted. There will always be places where you should feel safe where you feel so broken that you don't know what to do anymore. But in the midst of that, there is somewhere you can turn. There is somewhere you can run. There is someone you can flee to and cry, "I may not be good enough, but will You have me?! I may be ugly, but will You find me beautiful? I may be weak, but will You carry me? I may be lost, but will You lead me somewhere! I may be unlovable, but will You love me? I may be unwelcome everywhere else, but will You make room for me?"


No matter what you are going through, or what you have experienced in life, there is somewhere you can go. There is someone you can turn to. So join David's cry. Right now, wherever you are, just fall on your face before God and cry out for Him. Because we know that though "my father and mother have forsaken me...the Lord will take me in."


He has made room for you. You are not alone. 

© 2019 by Michael LaBorn